“I over the years used makeup as a disguise or as something to hide behind—more and more and more hair, and more and more and more thicker the eyeliner, the whatever,” she said. “I still have love for it and appreciation for it, but I think as I get older, I don’t love that being the intention behind it anymore.”

Contemplating her directive to share “beauty secrets” in the video, she mused, “Isn’t the secret that we all just want to feel our best and be loved?”

The ruminations surprised even Grande, who flashed her newly-inked Glinda tattoo, a tribute to her work in the two-part screen adaptation of Wicked in which she plays the famed bubble-riding good witch of Oz, on the back of her hand as she went through her beauty routine.

“Didn’t expect to get emotional,” she said. “For a long time, beauty was about hiding for me, and now I feel like maybe it’s not. Since I stopped getting fillers and Botox, and maybe I’ll start again one day, I don’t know, to each their own, whatever makes you feel beautiful I do support. But I know for me I just was like oh, I want to see my well-earned cry lines and smile lines. I hope my smile lines get deeper and deeper and I laugh more and more. Aging can be such a beautiful thing. Now, might I get a facelift in 10 years? Might, yeah! But these are just thoughts that I feel like we should be able to discuss. If we’re sitting here talking about beauty secrets, fuck it, let’s lay it all out there.”

Of course, it’s not all emotional meditations on beauty. Come for the poignant moments, we say, and stay for Grande charmingly flipping off the camera and giving big “my nail beds suck” energy about her “massive forehead” and ever-shifting hairline.